-Self importance is not a negative thing, for it makes us take care of ourselves and ensures that we do not get trampled to death. However, from the point of a spiritual transformation it is a problem. Self importance glues our attention to the internal being of conversation so we do not perceive eternity within. Most of our concerns are about ourselves. We want to know what others can do for us, and how to judge them, how to “view them.” We actually think we can sit in judgment of others, while resenting their doing it to us.  

-At the root of this are times we thought we deserved something and did not get it. The first time this devastating blow comes usually is at the hands of our parents, who in our young eyes were put here for us and all our needs, unaware they lived before us. Additionally, unfortunately, there are those who were really emotionally and physically attacked by their parents. As a result we pity ourselves. Kids build good self pity scenarios and resent it when others tell them to stop. Adults do the same but are far more convoluted about it. What we all fail to see is that our parents are involved with their own self pity. The energy that runs this place assures that we are fed what is needed to reinforce this. Self pity builds into stories of how we would have done things better, eventually developing a sense of our being superior to “them” and self importance.  

-Self importance is the major component that we grind repetitively in the internal conversation. By doing so your attention becomes attached to the conversation instead of gaining access to the deeper part of you. To reduce the hold the being of conversation has, you have to let go of self pity. The first step is to reduce your self importance. In other words, you quit being the center of your world.

--This is taught in the world at large, but in a hurtful way. We hear not to dwell on ourselves, our pain, keep a stiff upper lip. We hear to give selflessly, submit to those in charge, but this then becomes twisted into a reflection of the conversational self, so that selflessness becomes part of what is selfish (-ish means to reflect something, selfish means to reflect the self). To gain external validation and appear selfless most people take the hurt and self pity, squash it under feelings that you should not show these, then feel guilty or threatened when the anger, self pity, and pain show through. The result is a lot of self repressed, hurt people looking for their value in other hurt people who are trying to appear selfless, all binding each other into feeling wrong for feeling bad. This lead to worrying how you look, standing in the being of conversation, the center of your thoughts, the most important being in all this.  There is no way for the eternal part to surface in this game.

-To truly be selfless means you have no reflection in this matter. Faking it will not work. To let go of the importance and self pity you have to reach a place that neither matter anymore. Not that you do not matter, but that pity and importance do not matter.  

-To be released of the pain it is best to let it out in a controlled fashion. The scars are in your emotions and body, they need to be let out. The quickest ways to release emotional pain is to express it, but not at others. These are your issues. Pouring anger on others only primes them for revenge, and both of your beings will be trapped by that, just as the darkness wants. Get something soft you can kick, beat, and punch, like a big thick pillow. Then allow your self to relive situations of pain. Do not contrive this, say at  a weekly arranged time. Have the pillow ready. When you find you are sinking into a painful recollection let it build while you create a space so you are alone. This could take a day or two, or five minutes. When it is time just vomit the pain out, grab the pillow and destroy it with every cell in your body, though taking care not to hurt your body or shield. Do this as long as feels right during a session, then stop. If the same feeling returns later do it again. As time passes your body will let go of the physical need to express this. This is not the removal of self pity and importance, but it will reduce it so you can better listen inside unfiltered by the static.

--Self Importance. The  Middle East deserts are full of statues to past rulers. These were set to permanently keep the rulers existence before us. They have inscriptions  such as “I am so and so, ruler of all there is. All bow before me, gods grovel at my feet, the earth carries me on her shoulders, and all eyes are fixed solely on my magnificence.” These are expressions of the self importance of various people. The statues lie shattered and crumbling, unknown to any but archaeologist and the locals who use them for scrap stones. Birds live among the statues  and crap on them. To spend a life building statues of self importance will not  free you.

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