-It is easy to point at our parents when it comes to blaming or crediting someone for the way we are. Many children feel their parents should have been different, holding them responsible for the anger and hostility in our hearts. We think they should have been able to read our minds and needs, reacting in a way that would have suited our tastes and needs. Some even treat them as having known our desires and they choose purposely to thwart them. What we seldom understand is they are subject to the same things about their parents, and their parents about theirs, and theirs about theirs.

-So the question is, who is tormenting you and those generations before? Why are your parents absorbed in their “self” instead of being absorbed in your “self?” Why do they train you to reflect their desire instead of listening to what you want them to be? As you can see there is a separation between the two sets of selves, each within its own views. Each is reflecting on its own image. So who is feeding us this separated self to live in, this being of conversation that holds us in its swirl?  

-There is a force here, a being, that is presenting this world to us. This world seems very real, and it is, yet Physics tells us that this is a big energy cloud that we are standing in. Some would call this place an illusion, and it is in the sense that what we see masks what is truly here. However, this is not a dream, this is very real what is happening here.

-This being, this force goes by many names, which it uses to further blind us to its nature. We each imagine a something that persecutes each of us. We often give this feeling of persecution a face and name, often some group, and hate them. What we fail to remember is that all of us are each alone inside with this feeling of persecution. We are each reacting to an internal feeling, and the person / group “out there” is really an internal
expression of our feeling. This darkness, this force, talks fear internally to us, and we project our internal anger and fear “out there.” Think of all the billions dead in wars, genocide's, social revolutions, random violence, these are all based on a person feeling there is “them” that is doing something to “me.” Yet all of “them” have the same thing happening inside.
 
-This is what the darkness does; it instills you with the desire to have things your way, to resent others for getting in the way, to protect against being hurt again and to fear future persecution,  to persecute first in defense and convince us to rationalize inflicted pain as needed for our own safety, to control the situation so “we” are in a good position, and “they” are at least contained if not suppressed, or the reverse is that “we” struggle to get in a good position and throw off and possibly suppress our tormentors. That is how it holds us. It speaks fear to us internally and we justify tormenting others to keep the pain controlled. This being has many names, but no name is best. Try to sense its impact within all us, how it dictates us.

-This applies to those whose lives are totally fine and appreciate their upbringing. They are held by this same being within a conversation that convinces you everything is great, but your life is just as wrenched as others if not more so. You will also die a painful death, and all that you gained and struggled for will be lost, as will your self awareness and importance in your and your friends internal thoughts. Unfortunately you will not have the advantage of those who’s internal conversation has been embattled have. You will not know the desire to let go of this. Only at the moment that death comes will you understand there is something awry here.

--And what is awry? You are not the being of internal conversation. That was provided by the force that runs this place. It serves as a shield but it also holds you. It provides assumptions that it will live forever, when in fact it evaporate like the ephemeral haze it has always been. You are something completely different, something that lives in the body, but not in the thoughts. That real you is in this place, and is being held here, by the being that runs this place, in bondage. It is not your friend.

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