-Freedom, what is it? I have thought of it as avoiding others control, being what others convinced me I needed, getting others to do what I want, and doing as I like. All these are influences and forces of this place, translated within the internal conversation. There is no freedom in any of this. There is only the ability to chase slavishly in circles the same feelings and images we have had for a long time.

-The internal conversation shields a piece of eternity while it is here. This conversation is also an energy determined to keep the piece of eternity here in this place, with its endless levels of multiple dreams. It provides you options, choices, events you can act in, all to support your feeling of self import. It does this in this world, the next one, and the next. It holds out the dream that if you correctly organize get just one more piece, gain more awareness, evolve just a bit more, believe a bit more, then you will know, you will have the knowledge to make you like the gods. You may chuckle, but if you listen to your feelings, how you sit in judgment of others, talk of how the world should be, you are being like a god. That is what this place is, a home for eternal souls who want to be gods, under the thumb of an angel (a manifestation of God) that also wanted to be god. And here we stay.  

-We believe in our belief in God, or whatever master, redeemer, prophet. However, that is us believing in our belief of these things, in us, not God. The darkness uses the belief that we can be god like to feed us more awareness forever and thus keep us here seeking our god hood, our enlightenment. There is no freedom in any of this. The darkness gives awareness to convince you of your growing perfection, then takes it all at the time of your body's death, then leaves you floating here in this cloud. Do you really think this made up name, this random collection of choices and feelings you call you is going to survive and go to heaven? It is nothing but a group of words and images, held together by the self absorption of the self. The being of conversation cannot be enlightened. It is nothing but a gathering of words. Only the eternal part has a chance.

-Freedom is a state where the eternity inside is released from the control of the darkness and can leave this place. It is a state where the being that took a body to act out various feelings finally awakens from its feelings and dreams, and sees the way out of here. Freedom is when your shackles are broken, and you walk out of here. Yet the hold of this place is so intense that we only want to think about leaving, still wandering within the prison walls.  

-In the past a common mythology was that we were in a world of many levels, us and various spirits, angels, demons. Now days, as a result of Newtonian mechanics, we developed the myth that all things are solid and only matter. More recently late twentieth century physics presents a world of an energy haze with vast emptiness within each atom. It is my experience that these are all true. This place is a mystery that appears as the perceiver needs, serving to convince the believer that their view is right, but they are all dreams.

-I know there is another part of us that is totally different from the conversation, and it operates separately from it. As one disconnects the emotional and energetic hooks our various traumas have in us, all the energy holding them are freed and moves towards the other part of us. It occurs as an energy, not a feeling, but a physical energy. With this energy we hold our world together, with this energy we hold others to our world, and with this energy we can let go of this place and aim home. This world has an absolute realness to it, but it is only one of endless realms, as many as you want the darkness to create for you. However the realms are all a problem, holding you to this place. Only aiming for freedom creates something new.

--The way to freedom requires giving up wanting to be god like. That is why you are here, you want to sit at the table of the gods, to sit in judgment, to be the tormented and make others wrong, or be the tormentor and have them under your image. This has to be let go of, not in conversation, but deeper. If you honestly chose this a force, subtle but persistent, will pull on you and extricate you. If you do not want to leave, here you will stay. If you want freedom, you have to cease wanting to be the central sun, and live as the little shaft of sunlight that you really are.

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