-You have scattered within your psyche, body, and energy, the remains of past events. Though you recall these events as thoughts in your mind, this is not where they are stored. Your thoughts are ways of organizing the events, but not their impact.  

-We become immersed in the internal conversation because it is a good place to hide from past hurts and bury them. Unfortunately they are like thorns stuck under your skin, drawing energy and attention to keep the scab over them.  Just because you understand them does not mean they are out of you.  If you look, you will see these events plus your reactions define everything you do.  These are so deeply assumed that you would never consider reviewing or changing them because you are certain they are true.  This rigid soil sprouts all your efforts to keep yourself safe, though bound and imprisoned. The darkness also pokes at these scars to keep your attention on burying or living in the pain.  But the scars remain.

-If you want freedom the most important thing you can do is to gradually but unwaveringly re collect these past events and bring them to the fore of your experience. Do not just think about them, relive and witness them, understand how you became bound, and when ready let them go.  Send them back to the one they really belong to. The image you drew as a defense system does not serve freedom.  These words, feelings, awareness, are all energy designed to adhere to you and ensnare you in them.  This all belongs to the darkness.  All you have learned, all the growth, the awareness you attained, serve to hold you in your image of advancing god-like-ness. They are bequeathed by the darkness to hold you in your self importance and image. At death this will evaporate and return to the darkness in charge of this place. Given this is what will happen, the appropriate step, if you want freedom, is to let go of all this now. In doing so the darkness will loose hold on you, and at death cannot shock you as your image disintegrates, preventing your run for freedom. The darkness gave all this to you, and will take it back. If you choose to surrender to the darkness a perfect recollection of your self image, it will accept that for it has the awareness it gave you back. The darkness will try to hook you, but there will be no self importance to hook on to.

-When you choose this re collection you also send a signal out to something far more powerful than the darkness. The darkness merely runs this backwater area of creation. This is the self absorbed part of something much bigger. It goes by many names but I call it The Source. When your eternity wants freedom, The Source hears and comes for you, to set you free. Only The Source can set you free. You do not have the where with all to fight the darkness. If you feel yourself puffing up in reaction to this, see your self importance that holds you to your image. You can only choose to leave and allow your being to be guided. This is not a matter of a positive feeling, image, or thoughts, all part of the internal conversation. This is a deep willful feeling for freedom, knowing you do not have what it takes, and calling The Source to pull you Home. Do not waste time calling it to fulfill your dreams, your wishes, your desire for money, power, and a good car. This is calling the power of Freedom to assist your eternity in staying stuck in temporal dreams here, and it won’t answer. If you call for freedom, and you mean it, there will come a day, after many days of micro releases, when The Source will stand before you, and set you free, eternally.

-Do the recollection with the intent of being released of how you are. No sense going through an agonizing remembrance of all the hurt if you are left holding on to it. The goal is to relive the events. Place yourself in the feeling at the time it happened. Feel the energy that grabbed and pinned you down at the time. See how your attention became primarily involved in evading pain, closing your being to avoid hurt. Then, in full living of the event, breathe very deeply into it, moving your head like you are fanning the experience. When you reach the end of an event, you need to state that you are letting go of it and giving it back to the one it truly belongs to. Only do one event at a time, then get on with your day. The darkness will push you for more to overwhelm you.

-Eventually see how each event grabbed another piece of your attention and ensnared it in memories and avoidance of pain. When you pull the spears out of you can cease being a scar and heal. One day the balance will tip, and you begin to awaken. This recollection is a stand for freedom, for you, and any who want it.

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